Saturday, May 29, 2010
Tuesday, May 11, 2010
Monday, May 10, 2010
I know, I know, I know
...I'm a horrible, horrible person for my lack of blog updates.
I think I just need to do some re-organizing of my habits and surroundings. I need to do less thinking and more doing. It's frustrating, though, when you work best when you're away from your personal space, yet that's all you have.
Bottom line is, I'm missing the lab back at KU a lot these days. It was so easy for me to focus on the task at hand there, where I had everything and everyone I needed right there with me. I've never been one to work by myself in my room, yet that's what it's come to here. I'm getting work done, but it never seems like enough. I need deadlines, I need to know what exactly is due next week, I need to find some way to organize all of the thoughts and ideas into cohesiveness.
Maybe it's the fact that I ended last semester after what seemed like a marathon run, and didn't really do anything at the level of intensity I was at since then. Yes, I had an internship, but I feel like only about 25% of that was design, and what I did design really wasn't what I was used to doing, or even liked doing. Yes, I learned a great deal about thinking and concepting, but there was also a lot of sitting and staring. Maybe I just waited too long to get back to that design high I had last semester?
I also need to stop feeling like in coming here, I was taking a huge gamble scholastically. I mean, I feel like this is one of my most important semesters for creating solid portfolio-worthy work, and I'm now halfway across the world, basically flying by the seat of my pants design wise. There's a part of me that thinks maybe I should have stayed back in that security and routine that I enjoyed so much last semester, done my projects, and hopefully have success with them. I just have this annoying feeling that my work is going to stuffer here because I'm not as self sustained as others; that it's going to be sloppy and under par, reflecting the way I'm feeling right now. I don't know...maybe this is all part of the culture shock they're talking about.
I guess it's time to start getting real about being a serious design student. I just wish I would have realized that a semester or two earlier.
Anyways here are some photos I took while on a walk by the river the other evening. just some flowers.
I think I just need to do some re-organizing of my habits and surroundings. I need to do less thinking and more doing. It's frustrating, though, when you work best when you're away from your personal space, yet that's all you have.
Bottom line is, I'm missing the lab back at KU a lot these days. It was so easy for me to focus on the task at hand there, where I had everything and everyone I needed right there with me. I've never been one to work by myself in my room, yet that's what it's come to here. I'm getting work done, but it never seems like enough. I need deadlines, I need to know what exactly is due next week, I need to find some way to organize all of the thoughts and ideas into cohesiveness.
Maybe it's the fact that I ended last semester after what seemed like a marathon run, and didn't really do anything at the level of intensity I was at since then. Yes, I had an internship, but I feel like only about 25% of that was design, and what I did design really wasn't what I was used to doing, or even liked doing. Yes, I learned a great deal about thinking and concepting, but there was also a lot of sitting and staring. Maybe I just waited too long to get back to that design high I had last semester?
I also need to stop feeling like in coming here, I was taking a huge gamble scholastically. I mean, I feel like this is one of my most important semesters for creating solid portfolio-worthy work, and I'm now halfway across the world, basically flying by the seat of my pants design wise. There's a part of me that thinks maybe I should have stayed back in that security and routine that I enjoyed so much last semester, done my projects, and hopefully have success with them. I just have this annoying feeling that my work is going to stuffer here because I'm not as self sustained as others; that it's going to be sloppy and under par, reflecting the way I'm feeling right now. I don't know...maybe this is all part of the culture shock they're talking about.
I guess it's time to start getting real about being a serious design student. I just wish I would have realized that a semester or two earlier.
Anyways here are some photos I took while on a walk by the river the other evening. just some flowers.
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